This week I quit something close to my heart. My sisters and I started a coffee shop over 3 years ago. It has been a fun and tough project. At the time it was perfect, I could bring my kids to work and we all got to be together but over the last few years things have changed in my personal life.
I no longer have little babies at home.
I no longer have a husband that has job security
I can't afford to put energy into something that requires long term investment
It was a cold hard calculated decision to make. I took out that part of me that makes decisions based on emotion and put it on the bed next to me while I prayed about it because my heart is in it. I have worked so hard there, I know the customers, I LOVE my sisters, I have pushed through some hard things and sacrificed a lot to make that place work.
I brought up the feelings to my sisters, about my family being more important and not having the time anymore to commit and they basically took care of the rest. I know that God's hand was on the whole thing because something that should have been hard, something that has taken me years to say, was so smooth and peaceful. There was nothing but support and love and understanding. I cried my last two days there but then I woke up with new hope. I felt lighter and at peace with my decision. I am a little lost but full of relief. I a feel like I am starting at zero which is a great place to rebuild again.
